I was here, 10 years ago, back when tabulas.co was tabulas.com. I used to write my emotions here, they were mostly filled with desire, excitement, passion, sadness, longingness - they were raw and ripe as peach. Everyone knew me, of who I was, and of what I used to do. But I didn't know myself at all.

People call it "writer's block", for me it was a furlough. A long sabbatical ride to a road forgotten. Perhaps I was enjoying too much time being a hostess driver to a few who did not last, that my mind was most of the time bleary I lost control - I crashed. What was left was not something pleasing to share. I slept and slipped into the abyss. 

After a long time, I'm now awake.

And I'm back.